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Long story short, 8 years ago I lost custody of my son.  He did not wish to speak to me again about 4 years ago.  Since then I have tried texting and calling his dad to let me speak to our son.  Well, my ex has been telling me my son does not wish to speak to me.  He has not been telling our son I have tried to get a hold of him.  Well, Last Thursday I found my son on Facebook.  I sent a friend request and he excepted it.  Now, I have looked and looked for years for him on Facebook.  We started chatting online and he was so angry, which I understand and except.  But, he asked me why I left him behind.  I never did.  He tells me no one explained to him what happened that brought him to live with his dad.  His dad get angry and refuses to answer him.  My son has told me so many things.  They r being cruel to him.  His dad and stepmom.  He is so sad.  I asked him to come live with me.  In 1 week he will be 18.  He said yes, then the next day no.  He told me he was afraid we could end up on the streets.  I am on Disability and his dad use to make fun of me living off the government.  So, I kind of think someone has given him false info.  I have a home.  My rent is paid first thing.  Right now I am dying inside.  I know I can do nothing til he turns 18.  Now, I do not know if his father spoke him out of coming to live with me.  My son will not tell me and I have no one to speak to about this.  I feel so helpless.  I do not drive and live in another state.  I will do what it takes to get my son here.  But, as I said he changed his mind.  I can not stop shaking.  He tells me things then hurt my heart.  He likes to sew and his dad makes fun of him.  He was sewing last night and he broke a needle. I ask if he had more and he said only 1 more.  I asked if he could get more and he said he had no money.  That killed me.  My precious son not having what he needs.  Goodness the 99 cent stores have them.  Needles, thread and more.  But, no one will buy them for him.  I can not stop crying.  I do not know what to do for him.  If he is only staying there because they said something to scare him or maybe he really did change his mind.  They have filled his head with so many things.  Any advice would be greatly appreciated.  I am so overwhelmed and I have no family or friend to ask.  I have never felt so alone in my life.  I have to protect my son.  He was so excited to come here I really thought.  Thank you