going to my childrens state in 2 wks and not getting to see them

[helplessinnevada]

hey everyone...when it comes to visitation rights I feel as if I'm wearing a barrel. Meaning I have none. I could no longer fight the custody issue with my ex-wife, due to the fact that between the guardian at latum and my attourney I'm nearly bankrupt. The courts have stripped me of my rights as a father, but they sure know where to find my paycheck. I have been accused of everything from downloading child porn to threatening to kidnap my kids, who by the way are 17 and 12 years old. I must say that all allegations were false and cleared by police. In October, I was ordered that in order to have visitation, I needed to have a couple of supervised visits with my children and a counselor that they supposedly were seeing.These visits were to have occurred around Thanksgiving and Christmas. Let me just say that I work in the retail industry and this is a very hard time to get away and I can barely afford to pay attention let alone a couple of plane trips to wisconsin,and missed work. In June my financial resources all but ran out, and was unable to continue the custody battle now in its second year. I figured out that no one, not even my own attourney was any help to me and felt as if I was fighting something I couldn't win...hell, I wasnt even seeking custody, just some fair quality time with my kids and myself. The courts described it as my kids being bitter that I left...well duh, I knew they would be bitter. Time heals all they say. Anyways, I called my ex-wife a couple of weeks ago and asked her if my kids could be at my sisters'40th suprise birthday party in August, telling her that I'd be in wisconsin at that time. She told me to call her in a week to make sure nothing else came up.o I waited a week and called back, and called several other times because she wasn't answering the phone. When I finally got a hold of her she told me she consulted with her attorney and  I would only be able to see my kids for a couple of hours in the counselors office. I questioned her and told her I didnt need counseling, and suggested I'd come to her place and visit them. She told me that she doesnt want me on her premises....which is another story of how I got raped in the court system....I even suggested bringing the police over.So it looks as if I'll be in wisconsin for a week and not be able to visit my flesh and blood because a mother is so pissed at me for leaving her and is using my kids as pawns....but she sure cashes the support check quickly....please help me